Hit the wall!

So been a while since I last blogged so thought I should check in so to speak. So last week was very happy to maintain after a munchy Sun and Mon and then to be honest not a brill Tues, Wed or Thurs.

I have a muffin fixation at the mo, I love baking cakes and always have and in times of stress and grumpiness do tend to get baking, I don't necessarily even like eating them but baking chills me, although recently I have been making chocolate muffins with chocolate icing and I am in LOVE with the icing, in fact I keep just eating the icing off the muffins and leaving the muffin! So the last batch of muffins are now gone after I ate the icing off 3 last night and threw the cakes so my goal is not to make any more.

The exercise has dried up as well, the weather has been so bad recently that I haven't been able to get out and I have decided the whale is no longer visiting Taunton pool.

So last week had a lot of stress in my life, early in the week I had a bit of stress through things and then later in the week I had a job interview for a new job, am happy to post that I got the job so am looking forward to that, going to be working in Taunton now doing the books for 2 jewellers which I am very excited about, not least because of the massive cut in travelling which means I will be able to get to some exercise classes for 6pm which will be great.

Feeling the strain of dieting and am gutted as only 2 weeks into Slimming world and I maintained and now am looking at a gain this week. Although I have made some good choices, have been cakes 3 times in the office this week and I have abstained, although then I get home and eat muffins so not sure which is worse!

Holiday in 3 weeks though and would like to lose over the next 2 weeks weigh ins so need to be good, cooked chilli cheese kievs though last week and again last night and they are lovely so my food repertoire is increasing.

Anyway I'm off to eat a cookie or an eclair.......... or both!

A munchy Sunday & Monday!

So had my nephew over the weekend hence the lack of a blog but life returning to normal so thought I should resume and hopefully the writing of the blog will help motivate and cheer me up!

So Thursday night was very pleased to lose another 2lb, the Slimming World class really works as 4 ½ off in 2 weeks! Love my class, the leaders is fab and people seem v friendly. Haven't really spoke to many but time will tell, the potential for making new friends is there.

So Thursday night treat night was 2 bits of pizza and a choc bar and I am happy to report I didn’t even eat the chocolate bar! Made Chris take it to work on Fri morning to remove temptation from me.

Fri and Sat was very good and my nephew was down staying so it was a struggle but I was v pleased, Sun it all went a bit wrong though!

We went to Brean Leisure park and lunch was from a chip shop so a cheese burger it was for me! Only ate a quarter of a portion of chips though, so was pleased with that. So that alone would not have been that bad it was what followed that did not help!

After we dropped Matthew home we went back to Taunton and decided to go out for dinner, we went to Prezzo, I was good and ate a pizza but a light option so its only a little flat bread pizza with a side salad, shared a portion of chips though and then ate cheesecake! But it was Honeycomb cheesecake, my favourite!

Whoops, need to write off Sunday then, but I am trying to learn to be forgiving and use my flexible syns and not beat myself up to much over a bad day so Monday started and I was feeling rubbish as loads going on but my eating was going to be back on track…………………….. and during the day I was good, well no bad food passed my lips. Unfortunately I didn’t eat nearly enough as by time I got home to cook my tea I was hank marving starving and while cooking cottage pie ate a load of crisps and some sultanas and then just ate and ate and ate all night.

So lesson learnt, eat more during the day otherwise you eat crap when you get home!

The exercise has slowed as well as weather so crap I cant get out and walk and swimming seems a awful pain right now, so a gain this week is on the cards I feel but am doing lots to try and make it a small gain and not let it mess me up too much!

Motivation motivation motivation!

So its Friday and it was weigh in last night, happy happy happy happy with my 2 1/2lb pound weight loss!!!

Yippee thats the best I have done so far! Was a bit gutted at first as I have been amazing all week and eaten totally on plan, walked over 4 miles at wknd, 3 20 min lunchtime walks and 1 round of swimming but learning to accept my body wont get rid of it that easily! 

Had a very good week last week even though it was Easter, Chris worked ALL weekend from 9am till at least 10pm which was annoying but Saturday went to In Laws and Kath (mother in law) was amazing and made me a really nice healthy lunch, then Sat night I had to go get some stuff for Chris and pick him up a chinese and I resisted and ate none of it! 

So went to group and stayed as I know this is the way to motivate me and make it work and im really hoping to start making some friends to, I find it really lonely being in Taunton with not much of a network around me, plus like minded focused people I could exercise with and bitch about food with! Its really hard being the new girl at group so for once in my life I just kept quiet and observed.

So it was Thursday treat night after group, I was going to treat my self to what ever I wanted! My treat was beans on toast lol, but on white bread with butter! It was lush then I ate 2 cookies! But I did make Chris take the rest to work though and stopped at that.
 
Found this photo the other day, its from christmas and its horrendous, I look about a million stone! This is why im dieting I look like a hippo! 














My advice to anyone trying to diet or just in general though is to stop eating white bread, I havent eaten any white bread in 4 weeks and been eating minimal brown and last night and today have felt so rough and bloated, try it for a week and guarantee you will see the difference.


So totally focused this week, going to follow plan to the letter as although I was amazing last week I wasnt weighing milk so today I did, weighed me milk and took it to work, they thought I wsa mad but hey ho. Also taking the body magic (exercise) up a notch, instead of my flat 20 min walk round the industrial estate to day I ventured up this really steep hill, almost died though, so any of you in Yeovil today who saw a fat woman almost collapsing up a hill while still marching on it was me! 


 Tried some new recipes this week as well and  hate trying new things so am very proud of myself, made a lush Broccoli and cheese pasta bake that was syn free if you used cheese as a healthy extra. I am very pleased with myself for that and am looking to make it again next week!

I am determined! I will do it, want a 2 1/2 loss next week as well so have to work towards that and not expect it to come easily but to follow plan! 


xxxx

Beached Whale at Taunton Pool

Yippee so finally got my flabby bum in gear and found Taunton swimming pool, went swimming Tuesday night and pleased to announce went back on Thursday night. Now it wasnt pleasant or fun and to be honest im amazed I went once and then went back again but I did and I am going to carry on swimming twice a week for time being. Now dont get excited I didnt swim a mile (did you know a mile is 66 lengths!) its gonna b a long long while till i get there but I finally broke the barrier and went and I went alone as Chris is working every night. So Tuesday night I swam 12 lengths which is actually only 408 metres which writing it sounds pretty pathetic but here my excuse, I saw someone I know and stopped and chatted to them for 10 minutes then they got out the pool and I thought right do you know what I am going to do another few lengths but they were starting a class and doing all sorts of stuff with ropes and I got a bit flustered so got out. Thursday though I am proud to say i did 16 lengths so increased by 4 lengths, again not masses but have you seen my arse? its quite heavy to drag around, mind you I did 12 then thought 'o I will just do a few more' and did another 2, by which point I was proper dying, but then thought 'O I will do a final 2' by the end of that I was proper dying!

But 28 lengths for someone who hasnt swam in 2 years and to go twice in a week Im ok with, plus done my 20 min walk at work twice this week and last weekend went on some amazing walks

On Saturday me and Chris went to Bossington near Porlock in Devon and walked to the top of the cliff, for those who know me, yep I ACTUALLY walked all the way to the top to take a photo and then all the way down and along the beach!!! Funny thing is how well Chris knows me as he made me walk up the cliff first then along the beach after as he said if we had walked along the beach and I had seen how far I would have to walk I would have kicked up a fuss, which is very true and made me chuckle!

This is the really funny house thing at the top of the cliff, you could see an old fire place in there it was mad!!! I was a pain as Saturday weather was rubbish when we went out but we still did and still got my bum moving! Also went to Dunster an walked around the town and went for lunch and I stuck with a jacket potato!






Sun, when the weather was gorgeous again Chris was working but I decided to go walking by myself, now I have lived in Taunton a year and gone on some fantastic walks around the area but decided to go to a National Trust place called Fyne Court as it was lovely, only I got lost trying to find it, Chris was most amused!

 So went off on a little walk, they have a map and routes and this was 1 and a half miles so off I trotted, IPOD blaring, humming to myself and it was GORGEOUS!, got a little lost though as was trying to find Broomfield Church and ended up totally in middle of no where with just fields around, so that added at least another half mile lol..

 The views are absolutely fantastic and it was just a shame I couldnt share it with anyone!

Loved the roots on this tree thought they were fab and so intricate and amazing.








So my weekend was good, lots of healthy walking and enjoyed it, so put that with 2 lots of swimming and 2 lots of 20 min walk at lunch and quite an active week.

Made a big decision as well, dieting with the girls at work just doesnt work for me, I need the support of a group and that kick up the bum so to speak so I finally did it, joined Slimming World AGAIN, for the 3rd time lol, Found a group in Taunton on a Thursday so thought my new Thursday routine would be to go swimming straight from work then off to fat club. So last night off I went, felt like crying the whole way through as I find it quite traumatic, girls at work thought I was mad for going before Easter weekend but my thinking is 4 days at home to get off to a good start. Havent told Chris either as want to get off to a good start and then tell him he he, luckily he doesnt read my blog!

Planning lots of activity this weekend, sun is shining today so im off for a long walk, hoping for a couple of hours walk to get me started well, will get swimming in there as well and going to look at Zumba classes.

Well enough of me talking, time to do me housework singing to me tunes, get those flabby bits moving and eat some breakfast, yogurt and raspberries this morning!


xxx

Yesterdays weigh in and a bit of a slump!

So weigh in yesterday and I was a bit shocked if I am honest as I stayed the same and I expected to put on really so that’s all good.

I thought I would be putting on weight as sort of lost it a little bit as I left my book at Lotties at the weekend so haven’t been writing down what I have been eating or doing much walking plus after the two Chinese’s at the weekend although haven’t eaten anything near as bad I still haven’t been excellent and after a sneaky weigh in on Wednesday was expecting the worst. So a nice surprise and after weigh in ate a lovely bit of cake! Well it was my desk buddy at works birthday and I had made the cake so it would have been rude not to, and it was lovely! 

I really enjoy making desserts and it’s a new recipe I have only made once before for my mother in law for Mothers Day. If only I enjoyed cooking proper healthy food as much as I love making cakes.

Feeling a bit hacked off really about the whole weight thing and sort of wanting to give up on my blog but am plodding on (like the snail in the race with the hare) in 3 weeks have only lost 2 ½ lb yet I have been trying and actually trying quite hard.

So last night I ate a pack of wotsits, first pack of crisps I had eaten in 3 weeks and I expected to love them and actually it was not that great, tasted quite poop really, so I suppose that’s a good thing although if you gave me a pack of high fat crisps I might be saying different. First couple of days in the week was really hungry and felt like I was eating loads but last two days for lunch have had beans on toast on small wholemeal bread and it has really been filling me up.

Been walking 3 days this week at lunch, it’s a 20 min circuit so I suppose that’s quite good, am actually going to try and get my butt to the swimming pool this weekend as well.

There’s a woman at work who this week is doing really well, she’s doing the shake and soup diet and I just wish I had the will power to do it if just for a week, I am just so useless that I cant do it GRRRR!!!!

So weekend ahead, lots of temptation, out for a meal this evening with friends, already stressing about what to get my fat bum into, and then Chris working all weekend so could end up eating crap alone at home.

A weekend of Chinese!

So after a weekend of not really being on track and being naughty its back to the drawing board.

SO Thursday night after my good weigh in was driving home dreaming of Chinese and really wanted one but decided ‘No I will go home and eat sausages and mash and veg’ then met Chris in the pub on way home and he wanted Chinese so I caved in and ate Chinese, although I was good and ordered chicken chow mien as I thought noodles would be better than sweet and sour.

Friday I went to my best friends Lottie’s to spend time with her and Theo, we ordered sandwiches from a lush sandwich shop, I was good had Turkey, salad on granary, Lottie had a brownie and I ate some fruit, (although I may have had a sneaky bit of brownie) For tea we ate chicken Kiev, so not so good but still, new pots and lettuce so that made it good.

Sat morning I ate some toast and fruit, then we went out to a Starbucks and there I was amazing as I wanted hot chocolate and cake, and actually had filter coffee and fruit salad! Lunch was a wholemeal roll and ham and a yogurt and more sodding fruit.

Went home and to a BBQ, only ate one burger on a wholemeal roll and then ate a pre packed salad I bought. Yesterday I had bran flakes for brekkie, which I was very proud of as made Chris bacon sandwiches. For lunch ate the rest of the prepacked salad, (plus a pack of chewits) but then for tea me and Chris were out and on way back got Chinese AGAIN! Bad Boyfriend!

So although some good choices were made at the weekend there were some truly bad ones, o well its start to a new week. Stepped on scales this morning and have a bit to lose to break even on Thursday. But onwards and upwards let put it behind me, and move on……………

Finally somethin to semi celebrate

So my fellow fat fighters finally some semi good news, weigh in day this morning and 1 1/2lbs lost!
  
WHOOP WHOOP

So im feeling better, not the loss I feel I deserve but still a loss, im learning that this time the weight isnt going to fall off, but slow and steady wins the race.

Doing well on the whole recording what I eat thing, makes me really think but im still adiment that before I was eating realyl well but maybe this is just tracking more and making me think totally about what is passing my lips.

So drivin home I was thinking 'right Thursday treat night' what shall i have tonight as a treat, was thinking about chinese, as you will remember I had a earlier craving for chinese but after much thinking decided no, I was going home to cook sausage and mash, met Chris in the pub on the way home and he told me he wanted chinese and I gave in GRRRRRRRRRR.

But the choices I made were better than usual, I ate chicken chow mein as better than some stuff, we shared sum rice and I ate some chips, I would like to say a few but there were a few of a few. But heres the thing, I ate that and then stopped, I thought about buying chocolate or crisps at the shop but didnt, I am determined that I would have my treat but that would be it and now im back on track and I am.

Going to my best friends tomorrow and got my food bag all packed so I can be healthy there no excuses. But I got to treat myself otherwise I will go mad, its just making sure I now get back on it.

The support im getting on my blog is really helping, I have had over 255 page views, my average blog gets over 30 views EACH, im astounded and thankful, its the thought of all you that keep me going, n the fact you have seen my fat bum!My next goal is to get 40+ average views per post, so share it with friends, colleagues anyone you want, I welcome the support and knowing people are listening really helps and motivates me.

That and a diamond ring anyway.........................


Off to bed, tired and full after chinese, nighty night fat fighters   xxxxxxx



p.s Chris thought I was mad when I threw the leftovers in the bin and put washing up liquid over it lol, but those who fight the battle of the bulge will get it lol